Full..

Life here at the moment is full...

I realised the other night this is probably the most I have ever been 'needed' by so many people and things in the whole of my life.

All three of my babes are at such different stages in their little lives and I am trying my best to meet all of their diverse needs.

Cherub is proving to be a real character and seems to just hold this HUGE personality in such a tiny little body. She just delights us every day and I have to be honest I feel so blessed to have her in my company. I feel she keeps me grounded and seems to look at me and remind me it will all be OK and that I am getting it right.

My little girl, is my big girl!

Today she spread her little wings and started Early kindy at our beautiful local Steiner school. Her classroom is right along side her big brother and she could not be happier with herself.

When I saw her off there today and walked down the path tears rolling down my cheek, it occurred to me she is a little shinning star that I can not pin down. She is such an extrovert, a highly social, bright little girl and despite me having hopes to have my children home with me until Kindergarten it was something she needed me to accept.

I am so proud of her.

And my little man is challenging me greatly with his ways and I try to remember we were given to each other to teach each other so much. But some days I wonder if I am getting it right with him. I wonder if I should just lie down and let him hide away from the big scary world he sees, to hide under his rock or should I continue to gently push him to face it. To let him see it is OK to try new things, it is OK to be a little daring.

All I know is I just have to keep showing him I love him...

With such opposite personalities in my older two I need to keep focus that their needs are different and see them for who they are as individuals.

There are so many other needs outside of the children. We have the numerous home renovations that are in the process and how I dislike my home being in chaos. A little demon I would like to tame but it creeps up and gets me all the time.

So I feel like I clean one space and another is open needing floorboards to be laid or has remnants of the carpets we have riped up all over it.

I think we can be proud when we finish we will have laid just under two tonnes of floorboards ourselves!!!! ( my beautiful man has worked his butt off).

But all that is happening is positive and at the end of our renovations our place will look great and we will be a step closer to another big dream I am planning.

I am still keeping close in mind how fortunate I am to have this life with this man, this home, these children and this spirit. The one that continues to find positive and always trying to see the best in a busy time despite this frustrating some at times it keeps life a little lighter.

And so I just need some deep breaths, some good nights sleep and to keep focus. Because life is so full at the moment and I do not want to buckle, yet stay strong and keep composure in it all.

This weekend we are getting away. We head off for a beautiful weekend and to kick it off tomorrow we are going to see some great music with our special friends.

Yippee!!!

P.S. Sorry I have not got any wedding pics up yet. The bride and groom are relaxing in a tropical Island and we have not got our hands on any pics. My beautiful man and I were both privileged enough to be a bridesmaid and a groomsman but this meant we could not be happy snapping all day.

But it must be said it was one of the most magical days of my life. Love is blissful to watch.